Psalms 4:3 (ESV)In my devotional, this Psalm about confidence in God hearing my prayers, made me think of when it appears God is not listening.
3 But know that the Lord has set apart the godly for himself; the Lord hears when I call to him.
God loves me, he has set me apart, he hears me when I call to him. However, sometimes he doesn't intervene when I'm struggling. Sometimes, I think He anxiously watches me struggle, as He purposely holds himself back. He knows that, sometimes, I need to endure the disappointment and feel the pain in order to grow.
This year my oldest son participated in baseball tryouts for the first time. His only previous experience with baseball had been playing with me in the yard and tee ball about five years ago. He did great under the circumstances. But for a little boy that is a perfectionist, he struggled.
As I watched, I knew it was painful for him. I knew every missed catch and every missed swing discouraged him. However, I also knew he had to learn from the experience. He had to learn more than baseball that night. He had to learn how to struggle and get back up and try again.
I wanted nothing more than to be out on that field with him. I wanted to hug him after every misstep and tell him it would be ok. I had to hold myself back for his sake. At the end of the tryouts, while I know he was discouraged, I was proud. My little boy had struggled through disappointment, picked himself up, and kept going.
So, when I'm struggling and I'm wondering why God is not making all of my issues vanish before my eyes, it may be because He is holding himself back for my sake. I only hope I can make Him proud when I struggle and I am able to keep going by leaning on His promise. His promise that I am set apart and He does hear me when I call to Him.