Psalms 6:1-10 (ESV)It has been a while since my spirit has grieved like David talks about in this Psalm. However, I have been there. Maybe not with men wanting to kill me, but certainly with Satan wanting to destroy me and my family.
1 To the choirmaster: with stringed instruments; according to the Sheminith. A Psalm of David. O Lord, rebuke me not in your anger, nor discipline me in your wrath. 2 Be gracious to me, O Lord, for I am languishing; heal me, O Lord, for my bones are troubled. 3 My soul also is greatly troubled. But you, O Lord—how long? 4 Turn, O Lord, deliver my life; save me for the sake of your steadfast love. 5 For in death there is no remembrance of you; in Sheol who will give you praise? 6 I am weary with my moaning; every night I flood my bed with tears; I drench my couch with my weeping. 7 My eye wastes away because of grief; it grows weak because of all my foes. 8 Depart from me, all you workers of evil, for the Lord has heard the sound of my weeping. 9 The Lord has heard my plea; the Lord accepts my prayer. 10 All my enemies shall be ashamed and greatly troubled; they shall turn back and be put to shame in a moment.
It's interesting to note that in many of David's psalms of distress, he starts with painful and fearful laments, but he ends with confidence and encouragement. He knows God is still listening and God will answer his prayers. I think that's how God wants us to come to him.
God wants us to lay it all out there, our pain, our sorrow, our fears, and our doubts. As we pour out our hearts, if we also take the time to pause and just listen, God is faithful to respond. Your worldly troubles will probably not vanish instantly, although they may, but God's Spirit will comfort you, so you too can end your prayer with confidence, encouragement, and praise.
I do wonder, does God respond when we hold back? If I talk to Him like an acquaintance, that I don't want to bother with how much I really hurt, will I be able to receive His comforting presence? Or, will He hold back, until I bring Him everything?
Father, forgive me for my unfaithfulness, and sometimes my pride, that keeps me from pouring out my heart to you. Thank you for always being faithful, for always hearing my plea, and for accepting my insufficient prayers.